“It’s still June and you’re here.”

As I sit here sipping on my soy chocolate milk, with boxes all around me, heaps of messiness, and The Almost blaring while I’m singing. I can’t help but to think this is the beginning of the end. God has ended this chapter in my life and now it’s moving on to the next. Next week I will be at summer camp with my youth kids then once I return I plan on driving home. A couple of nights ago I went to the AMB training camp to see my fellow team mates ( in case you don’t know Becca, Seth, and Ashley Hall are servant leaders on these high school one month trips). Sitting in the back watching I couldn’t help but to feel so proud of them. They were fully taking on the roles of leaders on their trips. They were grabbing each team mate and praying for them, and just being well.. Grown up. The second night I went to go see them it was their last night in Gainesville GA. While all them and their teams were so pumped and excited to go, I was sitting in the back mourning. I was crying like I had just lost them forever. Things will NEVER be the same. I wont get to come in my room at night and talk my head off to Ashley Hall, or have cookie/bubble parties on the balcony. I won’t get to see Seth daily and laugh at all his funny jokes. I won’t get to eat Becca’s cookies (which may make me lose a few ha). I kept thinking of all the “I won’t” things instead of seeing what is in store for me and them in the next chapter. Everyday is a growing and learning process for us as humans. Well we have hit our peak with each other, learned what God wanted us to learn from each other. God is choosing to close the chapter and start writing the next. I get to be with Becca and Em next year. Honestly, that’s amazing! I’m so blessed that God didn’t write them out completely. I get to see Ashley Hall and Seth when I come back for training camp. It’s going to be nice… but it will never be the same. I am blessed to have spent the time I have spent with them.

“It’s June and you’re still here.” Those were the words that were uttered over me recently by two of my leaders. I have to say it is nice that I am still here and didn’t give up or run away. I never realized till this year that I run away from things when they get bad. Since I was younger ignoring the MAIN problem was always my way around things. Well this internship was the wall I could not run around. I didn’t want to let myself, my family, or most importantly my Father down. All those people who told me I was wasting my time here will never understand what I did here, or my relationship with God. I feel like I graduated from AIM ha. It’s so refreshing to be out of the office but yet so sad. I will miss the people there so much. They are some solid people with faith like a mountain. People I could still learn from. I have great relationships with some of them and some friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime. I say hopefully because I am tired of having friends that leave just as quickly as they come in my life. Well if there’s anything I can say about this year it’s that I love the people I am around, and I love how they make me feel. I am running after God and nothing is going to stand in my way.